Marriage

I will be attending the wedding dinner of one of my JC classmate tomorrow night. She is probably the first friend I have who gets married at the age of 23. Other friends of mine who got married so early are mostly because of shotgun or cos their husbands are much older than them so they want to start a family early. For this classmate of mine who will be getting married tomorrow, her husband is only around 2 or 3 years older than her. So they are out of the norm to me.

To me, for some reasons, I no longer believe in marriage. To me, marriage is just a status to let everyone else know that you are together with your spouse legally. It may also be to please the parents of both side who do not like their children to cohabit. Other than that, it is more of just a fragile piece of paper.

And no, the reason I don't believe in marriage is not cos I come from a broken family or some sort. In fact I have a happy family and to this day I think my parents are still very lovng with each other. I still see them going pak-tor every weekend when my mum is not working... I love to see them together like this. Very sweet de wor...

Maybe because of the escalating divorce rates you see in the society now. It is more or less affecting me ba... Marriage is no longer a security to let you know that you will live happily ever after with your partner... Just like you can be dating this guy or girl for many years. Yet you may end up marrying someone whom you only dated for only one year after breaking up with the gf/bf of 4 or 5 yrs.

I still remember my sis's friend getting divorced within a year of her marriage cos of a 3rd party. Her husband still can give her a lame excuse that he feel that their character doesn't match after 5 yrs of dating... Crap...

Sometimes I wonder if there will come the day when I will get married at all... I can't see myself getting married to anyone... Maybe I used to imagine myself getting married wth Fred cos after all I was with him for 3 yrs plus. But that's history already. Now I seriously can't imagine myself getting married to anyone... Not even my current bf... Maybe I will change my mind a few years down the road... Just maybe...

How Boyish or Girlish You Are?

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

hee... did this test not long ago and here are the results.... No wonder Brian always wonder whether I wear skirt or wear pants. hee...

ok I admit... I am more boyish compared to other girls... lol... Bo bian... I'm born with this characteristic... hee... Maybe that's y I mix with guys easier than with girls. :P

Birthday wishlist

hee... my birthday coming along the way liao wor... so i shall be very kind and list down the things I want for my bdae...

My Birthday Wishlist:
1) Lap top
hee... my stupid computer can go into retirement liao lah... tried to start up just now and it just keep restarting itself again n again n again... Chem so poor liao where to go find $$ to buy a new pc or even labby so of cos must depend on my friends liao... lol...

2) ipod Nano
Wah... this baby is just so chio... I see liao also want to drool... Come come... see which kind soul is willing to buy this baby for me... lol

3) Camera
hee... anyone willing to get a me camera? My expectations not very high lah... 4 MP, 2.5" screen n must be those that went into slimming centre before one... see i so kind... never expect it to be those 5 megapixels one... :P

4) Rebonding
ok... I have decided to go do rebonding liao... but doing rebonding in Kimage is bloody ex... it's defintely going to burn a big big BIG hole in my pocket... so sad... hee... but I think someone is going to be ripped off by me liao... lol...

5) A pair of jeans (ok this is out liao cos my sec sch friends have offer to pay for them... :D)
hee... I spotted the pair of jeans I wan liao... You are mine on my bdae cos I will be going to get the 20% bdae discount... :D But if anyone wan to pay for it I also dun mind... lol

6) Tee-shirts
Chem arh... I think I'm lacking of clothes to wear nowadays... everytime fri comes for me to go to work, I will look into my cupboard and wonder wat to wear to office.. gd lah... fri I can dress dw... but not good in the sense that I no plain tee-shirt to wear. so end up I seems to be always wearing the Hard Rock Cafe tee shirt that bro bought for me from HK.

ok... final note... this one is just a joke lah... I dun really expect anyone to get any of these for me... I'm just feeling too bo liao at this pt of time so I come up with this list... read read then nia ok? :)

Piggy me...

Haven been blogging for quite sometime... Been kinda busy with my work and sch... in fact so busy that I actually feel kind of stress with my exams... I was glad that I finally got over and done with all my projects and stuff. In fact for the past week I din really get a lot of sleep because I was busy doing my proj until wee hours. So imagine how glad I was when I was finally able to get some decent sleep over the weekend. :)

I'm actually having my exams this week and almost everyday, I actually stay outside and study with my classmates until ard 12mn. I bet I will put on lots of weight during my exam period... How not to when u see the rate that Ah Orh and I were eating? Take for eg... I met them on Sun at 3+. Within one hour of me reaching there, Dai Lo, Miss Pattern and Ah Orh said they want to go n eat KFC. so off to KFC we go... after eating at KFC (by then Jac had already join us), we went off to study at the Mac nearby cos it was too noisy at KFC. We were studying until ard 8+ or 9 when ah orh went and redeemed a 9 pc nuggets and got a drink. Jac, ah orh and I shared the nuggets cos dai lo and miss pattern also left by that time. Jac left ah orh n I at ard 10+ and ah orh and I decided to call it a day at ard 12mn. After calling it a day, both of us went n ate Chong Pang nasi lemak! What a piggy day I had... :P and this dun happen onli once... it happened again just the other day while we were out studying also...

so dun b surprised if u bump into me n c a fat fat me ... :P

Be myself...

曲名：做自己
歌手：同恩

会不会走太快
爱宠坏你和我
能不能停一下
只要一下就可以
偶尔我想偷个闲
好或坏等明天再想
偶尔我会有点腻
好或坏等明天再说
不想爱你或爱他
我只想做自己
只想为了自己多呼吸一点
就算爱你比爱他 更美丽
不如我让自己解放
会不会走太快
爱宠坏你和我
能不能停一下
只要一下就可以
偶尔我想松了弦
而好或坏等明天再想
偶尔我想听不见
是好是坏等明天再说
不想爱你或爱他
我只想做自己
只想为了自己多呼吸一点
就算爱你比爱他 更美丽
不如我让自己解放 oh
不想为你 我为他
我只想爱自己
只想为了自己再诚实一些
就没有你没有他 没有谁
只剩我和自己流浪
会不会走太快 爱宠坏你和我
能不能停一下
一下就可以

Yesterday...

I always hear this song on yes 933 and like it quite a lot so went n find the lyrics jus now... =)

Yesterday By Beatles

Yesterday
All my troubles seem so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh I believe in yesterday

SuddenlyI'm not half the man I used to be
There's a shadow hanging over me
Oh yesterday came suddenly

Why she had to go
I don't know she wouldn't say
I said something wrong
Now I long for yesterday

Yesterday
Love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh I believe in yesterday
Why she had to go
I don't know she wouldn't say
I said something wrong
Now I long for yesterday

Yesterday
Love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh I believe in yesterday

If ever I am to go missing...

If ever I am to go missing from your life, please don't try and look for me ok? It may be that I'm finally sick and tired of all these and need to get away from it all. It may also be because I decided to be a coward and hide from you all so that I don't have to think so much anymore...

Sometimes I really feel like off-ing my hp so that nobody will be able to find me. Or even better, lose all my contact nos. or lost my hp so that I can start everything all over again. Perhaps it is the only way that I can get away from all these things and I will then be able to have time to think of what I really want.

There are other times when I hope I will lose my memories. So that I do not have to be reminded of all the happy and sad memories I had with so many people. So that I do not have to be reminded of the things i 'should' and 'should not' do.

Sometimes I really think I need a break from all these and hide from everyone in a place where nobody can find me. So that I can think things through and not feel so bothered by all these things...

So if ever you cannot find me by calling or sms-ing me throughout the whole day, jus leave me alone and give me some time to myself ok? Let me hide in my shell for a while until I'm ready to face the world again...

I think I'm under too much stress at the moment so if you want, you can ignore whatever I typed here...