Goodbye 2013. Hello 2014!

Time flies... very soon, it will be the end of 2013 and the start of 2014. 

I got closer to my family though so it is a big plus. I have to thank the little one for that. It is because of her that I see my family more frequent that I otherwise will. She is a joy to be around. It is great seeing her grow and the stunts that she will come up with on and off. 

Looking back, I realised I did not achieve much in 2013 in terms of career. I am looking out for greener pastures in a different field. It is just unfortunate that I do not have the luck yet. Let's hope 2014 will be able to bring me the career change that I have been wanting. For better or for worse. Whatever it is, my turn for a change in job is long overdue. It is time to do something about it.

There are some people I will like to delete away from my life. One in particular. There's a lot of ups and downs that I have so I guess I had enough of it. A lot of times, there are things that I know but don't mention because I am waiting for them to tell me themselves. No matter how difficult it is. Especially when in a way, it is things that I have a right to know. I don't like people to test my faith in them. 

Let's hope for the better in 2014. Goodbye 2013! 

Wonder...

Sometimes I wonder if all these are actually only a dream. Maybe I just have an extremely imaginative mind that made all these up. 

what r u guarding against me? 

Sigh...

I thought I had already make peace with it. But I guess I still do care. Otherwise I won't be feeling the way I am now... Sigh... 

Sleepless at night

This is actually quite terrible. I have been sleeplessmat night ever since I moved into Punggol? Is it the problem with the place? I definitely did not have any problem sleeping when I stayed over with dad in wdls just the other day. It is only when I a, staying in Punggol when I faced this problwm. Sigh...

I hope this phenomenon won't continue... I want my sleep! 

Axed

My company axed 2 person yesterday, after giving them their pay increment letter on Friday. wtf. It is good that the retrenchment package is based on the new pay. I just don't understand why they choose to give people hope on Friday that you are not going to be axed since they give you a pay increment and then axed them the following day? so kns one lor.

I am sad to see someone whom I had been working with for the last almost 9 years leave us because of this axing. I am even more upset with the company. Did they realised that these very people whom they had just axed, are the ones wh helped you grow your business to this size for the last few years?
Yes, you set up a China office, make it to be the hq and make it bigger than what we have in Sg. However, what they have in China may not be the best. I had heard comments from other people who said that they missed having us do the stuff for them. I have kept quiet because I know there is no way things can go back to how it was.

The company is no longer worth staying. It is no longer the company that it used to be. I guess that explains alot why there are so many pioneers quitting the last few years. It is time to get out.

Bothered

I'm actually quite bothered by how upset she was over my joke. As much as I really meant it as a joke, I didn't realise she will be so upset. So upset that I can actually feel the distance that she is putting between us now even though she told me she had got over it liao. Or am I just being too senstive liao?

Whatever it is, I realised that I do need to think twice about anything I tell her from now on. I guess I don't wish to see what happened today repeat itself again.

Death

A schoolmate of mine just passed away from cancer yesterday. He had been fighting cancer for the last 2 years. This had me thinking... what is the best way to leave this world? 

Is it better to know when your end is near so that you do what you have yet to accomplish and have the time to say goodbye? Or  is it better to just leave the world just with a wham-bang kind of way? 

I really have no idea which is the most ideal way. It is just sad to know that one day, we will all have to leave this world. I know there are some regrets that I am definitely going to leave this world with. I just hope I can minimise them. Sigh... 

Random

We are training up the people in other countries so that we can get replaced by them. It's ok though. They can learn whatever stuff we are doing but they will never be able to take away my experience. My 8 years of hard work is not something that is just for show. They will never be able to take away what I had learnt.

Axed

My company axed 2 person yesterday, after giving them their pay increment letter on Friday. wtf. It is good that the retrenchment package is based on the new pay. I just don't understand why they choose to give people hope on Friday that you are not going to be axed since they give you a pay increment and then axed them the following day? so kns one lor.

I am sad to see someone whom I had been working with for the last almost 9 years leave us because of this axing. I am even more upset with the company. Did they realised that these very people whom they had just axed, are the ones wh helped you grow your business to this size for the last few years?
Yes, you set up a China office, make it to be the hq and make it bigger than what we have in Sg. However, what they have in China may not be the best. I had heard comments from other people who said that they missed having us do the stuff for them. I have kept quiet because I know there is no way things can go back to how it was.

The company is no longer worth staying. It is no longer the company that it used to be. I guess that explains alot why there are so many pioneers quitting the last few years. It is time to get out.

will I actually have the chance/courage to end it all? After all, it is really not going anywhere... I'm tired...

Keeping Diaries

Sometimes I wonder if it is really good to keep diaries or blog to make me remember what had happened in my life. While doing spring cleaning today, I saw a diary that I used to keep. I wrote about things that happened between my ex bf and me. It seemed so long ago and it is making me feel really old. It does however, make me remember my life then. About how it used to be... About life so long ago... That was a good relationship that I had so it sort of brings back good memories. What about the bad memories I had? Will it make me start thinking about how it should have been? About how things can be different if I had done some things differently?

366 Project: Pineapple tarts

This year's home made pineapple tarts. Taste quite nice. :D

Missing those days...

I missed those days in Uni when I had lots more fun than just studying. Those KTV days, drinking, birthday sabotages, trip to Sapa in the sleepover train...

I missed the gang too... what really happened to make us all drift so far apart? I had hoped that they are not just situational friends, hoped that they are really friends for life... Maybe the friendship is not strong enough in e first place... Sigh...

Crazy

for a moment I thought he was crazy. Then I realised I am the crazy one to think he will actually even consider that. :S

Happy 2013!