Start of a new Journey

I am currently on the third week into my new job. What a big difference this is~ From a job where I am able to get about freely without having to ask anyone about most things, to a job where I have to check with someone constantly. I had to keep bothering everyone  constantly for some answers. For some reason, I found myself becoming the minutes taker for the meetings too. Of course that is only if my boss is the one chairing the meeting, which is like 3 times a week. -.-''' Sometimes I think I am like my boss's PA. ha... 

In a way, I think the new job is very interesting. It is a really different industry. So there is really a very steep learning curve. Every term that they are using sound so foreign to me. Sighhh... But I think I am more or less getting a hang of it after 3 weeks. At least I am finally able to make sense on what they are talking about now. Not an easy feat wor... haha... 

I am currently helping to compile the Year End Report. It is machiam like my school project where I used to be mostly in charge of compiling and editing all the language. Sooooo... familiar. lol.. 

I hope the new job will go well~ I am thankful that the people in the company seems to be quite nice. :) So now, I am hoping the job will go well too. :)

Last Day~

Time flies~ today is my last day at work! It has been a long 12.5 years. This is the first job I had and never had I ever imagine that I will actually stayed on in my first job for 12.5 years. 

I think in a way, I am still going to miss the people here. After all, we did had fun and laughter together. There are many memories that I had with them that I will keep for years to come. =)

I am excited to embark on a new journey. A totally unexpected turn of a new chapter in my life. Looking forward~ =)

Happy Birthday to me!

I took this photo at the 年梯 near 日月潭文武庙 when we were in Taiwan last year. 20th October marks the day when I was brought into this world 34 years ago. Thank you all for the well wishes for my birthday. I had a fantastic day. =)

Bored~

I am currently on 2 weeks of hospitalisation leave. I went and got a scan because I felt a lump at my breast area. Doc did a scan and found a "lesion" at another part of my breast and suggested for me to remove it. So... here I am, with 2 weeks of hospitalisation leave... 

I'm bored... For the first few days after the op, I had trouble even getting down from the bed so I had to literally "slide" down from my bed. Things got better after the 3rd day. Heng arh... I can even sleep on my side now. 

For now... I'm just bored lah... because I dunno what to do with so much time... sian.. maybe I should catch up on my reading... see how bah... Now I am catching up on my blogging. haha... 

Notice Period Shortened!

Ha... My 2 months notice period is going to be cut short to 1month 1 week. I am not starting to wonder if I will have enough time to sort out everything before I leave the company. :P After all, no one has spoken to me about how they would want to move forward with the work done in Singapore. Let's see how it goes... 

Fighting~

"We can't control what happens to us, but we can control how we react to it. Remember that even when life knocks you down, you don't have to stay there and let it run the show. Get up and fight back, because that is the only way you can keep going." - Power of Positivity

I came across this in Power of Positivity. I think I need to constantly remind myself that I can't control what happened to me, but I can control how I handle the situation. I will not let myself get knocked down. I will overcome whatever difficulties that comes along.

You Win Some, You Lose Some

All along, I have always believe that in life, you win some, you lose some. Almost three quarters of 2016 has passed just like that. 2016 flew past in a blink of an eye for me. 

In a way, 2016 is a life changing year for me. All along I had hoped I will be able to see some changes from my routine life but I guess I was definitely not expecting this kind of changes. 

On the win side, I am finally going to change my job! Woohoo~ This is probably the biggest win for me for the year for now. 

On the  lose side, I am seeing some red flags in my health condition. It is something I will have to face with for the rest of my life. I can only try and see what can I do to solve this as much as I can. I have to solve it no matter what. 

I am looking forward to the new life ahead~ :D

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Good News~

I had some good news today~ :D I was back at the hospital for the review of a procedure I did last week. All is well. :) Kinda happy about it. The day is good! :) 

流年不利

wah... I really think I 流年不利~ Things have not been going well for me in my health this year... It is... really bad. 

I am only hoping that when I lose some, I gain some also... Let's hope my job hunting will be good... 

Medical Leave

I'm on 1 week of medical leave this week~ Seems like a lot of time for me to no but how come like not huh? I have already while away almost 2 whole days without accomplishing anything at all... ahhh... 

I don't have much to do at home other than to sleep my day away or watch tv... Soooo... sian... 

I actually had a to-do list the last round... but I did not accomplished anything from that list at all the last time round! So I gave up and did not try to come up with a to-do list this time round. haha... 

ok lah... at least this time I managed to blog a little... so better than nothing... hee... I am happy today~ Simple pleasures in Life~

时间是记忆的橡皮擦

I came across this notebook that I bought from Shanghai many many years ago... I kinda like and agree with the statement that "时间是记忆的橡皮擦". There are so many things that I had forgotten over the years. It could be something that had touched me during that moment or some little thing that I had discovered... I guess this is part of the reason why I still blog every now and then. Just in case I forgot about what had happened. Just in case I forgot the things that I should remember... 

Frustrated and helpless

I really don't know whether I should be upset or frustrated with her and with myself. It has not been easy coming to terms with the situation that cannot be changed. I had thought I had more or less accepted everything and just take them in my stride. Obviously I am wrong. I probably think too highly of myself. 

As much as I know she is very concerned and wants the best for me, she is also not helping with all her remarks/comments. She is making it worse for me because I have no idea how to handle her, her expectations and no idea how to make her realise that I am as helpless about the situation as she is. I almost wanted to not update her about the situation because I am afraid of the comments that she might say and I will need to curb my anger / frustration and have to walk away in case I start a fight with her. Just like what I did last night. 

There is really nothing I can do about the situation. Nothing that I can do to change  it so what does she expect me to do? I am really feeling very helpless.  

Super Duper Lousy Mood

I am in super duper lousy mood now. The worst thing is, there is no solution to what had caused me to be in such lousy mood now. I can't possibly keep ignoring my mum right? I can't really have a huge fight with her cos ultimately she is just concern about me right? So all I can do now is to just find one corner and sulk and hope my lousy mood will go away soon. Wahh... Really sibei sian. Sibei pek cek... Arghhhhhh...

Passion

Haha... I have never ever thought I will ever stepped into this salon for a hair cut / color / hair treatment and whatsnots. This place is just too atas liao lah. This is probably one of the most expensive hair salon in Singapore. 

I finally stepped into this salon for the first time in my life. All thanks to my hair stylist. My hair stylist quit his job and joined Passion. Good for him but bad for my pocket. -.-''' ha... So expensive~ never mind. I got a good rate. Quite worth it for the experience. With a nice view of Orchard Road too. At least I can boost about going to Passion for a haircut. Lol... 

Rope Yoga

I finally redeemed my GuavaPass and attended my first class today. Rope Yoga!

It is a very interesting class. I am kind of a yoga noob. So I was not familiar with the poses and all but it did not matter much too. After all this class is not call Rope Yoga for nothing. 

Rope Yoga makes use of ropes that were on the walls to help you stretch your muscles and maximise your potential. Haha... When I entered the room, I thought it looked like some SM chamber. Hahaha... 

To be honest... Rope Yoga is SUPER tiring. I can barely lift up my arms now... I bet my muscles are going to ache until it kills me tomorrow~ 😱😱😱

I think I will probably go back for more lessons. But I want to try other things too. So let me try out the few classes that I am looking at first then go back to Rope Yoga again. I find these equipment/ item assisted yoga/pilates are more interesting this way. Let's see how it goes... 

I hope I will persist with my exercise regime~ 

GuavaPass

I was procrastinating about exercising for the longest time. I am not super keen with jogging because it leaves me breathless. I am perfectly fine with walking so nowadays, walking is probably the only form of exercise that I have been doing on a regular basis. Sometimes I will drop off from Punggol MRT and walked 20mins home. Shopping is a great exercise too! ;)

I did consider signing up for a gym membership. But I know myself. I am a 三分钟热度 kind of person, so it is very likely that I will make use of the gym for a fee months then slack off because of some reason. This was why I hesistated about the gym membership for the longest time. Of cos, the cost is a concern too. 

I got lucky this year. I won a 1 year GuavaPass membership. This will give me access to many studios across the island with many different activities to choose from. Yoga, Pilates, Kickboxing,  Pole Dance and so on. It is going to be very interesting to go for a lot of the classes that I had considered but didn't dare to join because of cost and all, like Pole Dance. 😁 

This GuavaPass is going to let me kickstart my exercise regime! I don't hope to lose weight through all the exercises. I only wished to be more toned. At least it will helped me look better in "something different". :D

Lack of Motivation and Purpose in Life

I realised a very big problem with my life. I am lack of motivation and purpose. I have no idea what to do with myself and seems to be living my life just as a life. 

I need to find a purpose in life. It is too waste of time just living for the sake of living. Especially when I may not have much time left anymore. Sighh... 

Taking Health for Granted

How many people have been taking their health for granted all these while? I have to sheepishly admit that I am one of them. 

Over the years, I have been trying to at least, maintain my weight. So that I do not become too obese. My BMI has been hovering at the normal to overweight range. But I have not done much to reduce my weight and all, or to exercise. My bad... 

Sometimes I think it takes something to happen to oneself or someone around one before they will get a wake up call. Because everyone has been taking their health for granted. That the diet can start the next day and all. That exercise can come the next day. For most of us, we just don't put in as much effort. Sighh... 

I think it is really time to look at leading a healthier but substainable lifestyle... 

人生的结束时

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Still affected...

As much as I had already 看开 over it, I guess I am still affected that it was over just like that. Especially when I was not even given a reason why she decided to turn her back on me. I probably won't feel a thing if it was someone else. However, this is a "friend" I thought I had made here. 

All for no reason at all. Not even an explanation even when I tried to ask. Nothing. 

I know there is no point brooding over it. We r out of each other's life permanently. Bye to whatever friendship we had. I have other more important stuff to worry about.

Lesson learnt

Lesson learnt from my friend's experience. It is true when people say "Don't eat where you shit".

Going MIA...

Sometimes I think it is kind of scary. How, if someone wants to, they can just simply going MIA and you will lose contact with that person forever. Even in this digital age. 

We have always taken for granted that the other person you cared about is always, just at the other side of the phone. However if one day, that person decides to just go MIA, there is really nothing you can do about it. 

If he or she is someone whom you are still holding on to for memories sake, there may not be any other reason for you to initiate contact even if you want to. Just because that person may have moved on with their life and this time, without you. This also means, you are in no position to ask anyone, what happened to that person. 

What if I decide to go MIA one day? Will anyone care enough to look for me? 

Up one level

I think I have just up one level with the things I do while at the hair salon. My hairstylist assistant just helped me da bao a 葱油拉面 for me to eat at the salon. Yummy~ 😋

擁有與放棄

「握在手裡的，不一定就是我們真正擁有的；我們所擁有的，也不一定就是我們真正銘刻在心的。其實人生很多時候需要自覺的放棄！放棄一個心儀卻無緣的朋友；放棄某段投入卻無收獲的感情；放棄某種選擇，也許會因此傷感，而這傷感并不妨礙我們新的開始！安然一份放棄，固守一份灑脫！

最糟糕的感覺，莫過於不知道因該等待還是放棄！

最難得的朋友是即使在分別後各自經歷人生，擁有新人陪伴，再重逢時，發現彼此依然是熟悉的。這份熟悉感不來自於怎樣相似的經歷，而是你們已經在不同的生活裡變成更好的人，而且永遠是同一種人。成長即是默契。不需要佔有和黏膩，好的感情，只會發生在幾個努力和獨立的靈魂上面。」- 幾米長城