will I actually have the chance/courage to end it all? After all, it is really not going anywhere... I'm tired...

Keeping Diaries

Sometimes I wonder if it is really good to keep diaries or blog to make me remember what had happened in my life. While doing spring cleaning today, I saw a diary that I used to keep. I wrote about things that happened between my ex bf and me. It seemed so long ago and it is making me feel really old. It does however, make me remember my life then. About how it used to be... About life so long ago... That was a good relationship that I had so it sort of brings back good memories. What about the bad memories I had? Will it make me start thinking about how it should have been? About how things can be different if I had done some things differently?