Frustrated and helpless

I really don't know whether I should be upset or frustrated with her and with myself. It has not been easy coming to terms with the situation that cannot be changed. I had thought I had more or less accepted everything and just take them in my stride. Obviously I am wrong. I probably think too highly of myself. 

As much as I know she is very concerned and wants the best for me, she is also not helping with all her remarks/comments. She is making it worse for me because I have no idea how to handle her, her expectations and no idea how to make her realise that I am as helpless about the situation as she is. I almost wanted to not update her about the situation because I am afraid of the comments that she might say and I will need to curb my anger / frustration and have to walk away in case I start a fight with her. Just like what I did last night. 

There is really nothing I can do about the situation. Nothing that I can do to change  it so what does she expect me to do? I am really feeling very helpless.  

Super Duper Lousy Mood

I am in super duper lousy mood now. The worst thing is, there is no solution to what had caused me to be in such lousy mood now. I can't possibly keep ignoring my mum right? I can't really have a huge fight with her cos ultimately she is just concern about me right? So all I can do now is to just find one corner and sulk and hope my lousy mood will go away soon. Wahh... Really sibei sian. Sibei pek cek... Arghhhhhh...

Passion

Haha... I have never ever thought I will ever stepped into this salon for a hair cut / color / hair treatment and whatsnots. This place is just too atas liao lah. This is probably one of the most expensive hair salon in Singapore. 

I finally stepped into this salon for the first time in my life. All thanks to my hair stylist. My hair stylist quit his job and joined Passion. Good for him but bad for my pocket. -.-''' ha... So expensive~ never mind. I got a good rate. Quite worth it for the experience. With a nice view of Orchard Road too. At least I can boost about going to Passion for a haircut. Lol... 

Rope Yoga

I finally redeemed my GuavaPass and attended my first class today. Rope Yoga!

It is a very interesting class. I am kind of a yoga noob. So I was not familiar with the poses and all but it did not matter much too. After all this class is not call Rope Yoga for nothing. 

Rope Yoga makes use of ropes that were on the walls to help you stretch your muscles and maximise your potential. Haha... When I entered the room, I thought it looked like some SM chamber. Hahaha... 

To be honest... Rope Yoga is SUPER tiring. I can barely lift up my arms now... I bet my muscles are going to ache until it kills me tomorrow~ 😱😱😱

I think I will probably go back for more lessons. But I want to try other things too. So let me try out the few classes that I am looking at first then go back to Rope Yoga again. I find these equipment/ item assisted yoga/pilates are more interesting this way. Let's see how it goes... 

I hope I will persist with my exercise regime~ 

GuavaPass

I was procrastinating about exercising for the longest time. I am not super keen with jogging because it leaves me breathless. I am perfectly fine with walking so nowadays, walking is probably the only form of exercise that I have been doing on a regular basis. Sometimes I will drop off from Punggol MRT and walked 20mins home. Shopping is a great exercise too! ;)

I did consider signing up for a gym membership. But I know myself. I am a 三分钟热度 kind of person, so it is very likely that I will make use of the gym for a fee months then slack off because of some reason. This was why I hesistated about the gym membership for the longest time. Of cos, the cost is a concern too. 

I got lucky this year. I won a 1 year GuavaPass membership. This will give me access to many studios across the island with many different activities to choose from. Yoga, Pilates, Kickboxing,  Pole Dance and so on. It is going to be very interesting to go for a lot of the classes that I had considered but didn't dare to join because of cost and all, like Pole Dance. 😁 

This GuavaPass is going to let me kickstart my exercise regime! I don't hope to lose weight through all the exercises. I only wished to be more toned. At least it will helped me look better in "something different". :D

Lack of Motivation and Purpose in Life

I realised a very big problem with my life. I am lack of motivation and purpose. I have no idea what to do with myself and seems to be living my life just as a life. 

I need to find a purpose in life. It is too waste of time just living for the sake of living. Especially when I may not have much time left anymore. Sighh...