飛輪海 - 默默 MV (完整版)

I just finished watching 爱就宅一起 and loved this song in the drama... :)

Being Friends with the Ex...

It seems to me that there really is not many people around who can accept the fact that their bf/gf is still friends or worse yet, best friends with their ex.

This didn't really happened to me. Rather, it happened to my best friend who was my ex bf. Seems to me that all his gfs or rather most of his gf are unable to accept the fact that both of us are still very good friends even though we broke up. It took some of them quite sometime to get over it. Some never got over it but have to accept it. My bf is probably one of those who are forced to accept ba... I'm not too sure also...

I just don't get it why does it bothers them so much? It was long over for the both of us. I am, in a way, happily attached already... It's not like I ever harbour any thoughts about us getting back together again. Neither does he... And most of all, we had changed... We are no longer who we used to be. We are still best friends because we understand each other/s thoughts and mentality most of the time. Yes, I say most of the time because sometimes I do have the urge to kill him when I cannot comprehend with his ideas and way of thinking. Most importantly, in a way, both of us grew up together. We walked alongside each other through many parts and often, most important parts of our lifes. This probably made the bond between us stronger than most people's. That is probably why we are still best friends even though we used to be together especially when we were good friends before we got together then.

No matter what, I do hope he will be able to find his happiness soon... After all, I wish the best for him...

Played Out

Last Friday, C and X asked me if I want to join them for lunch at Vivocity. Since I did not lunch with them over the past few days and plus it was a Friday, I decided to join them for lunch.

It was already almost 1 by the time we finished lunch. C said she wanted to go 2 shops in Vivo and X said she need to drop by Starhub for some errands. As S did not eat much, she had already went to run her own errands before we even finished lunch.

As I had nothing much to do in Vivo, I walked around Tangs for a while before calling S. S was helping her boss to look for something so I met up with her. While we were walking around, S recieved an sms from X saying C and her is going back to the office first as she was having a headache.

I was quite upset by it as X could have told us and we could all 4 go back together. By the time I got back to office, it was really late. Once I stepped into my lab, C tried to explain to me why they came back first.

C : After I went to the 2 shops, I was very tired already. I keep thinking why are you all taking so long? Then X said she is having a headache so we decided to come back first.

Me (trying to talk like I am not bothered or upset at all) : You have handphone lor. You could have called us one.

C: I was at Level 1 and I'm lazy to go up to Level 2 to look for you all mah.

Me (Thinking to myself "wah kao... she's damn lame lor) : We can come down and find you one lor.

C: I never think of that mah...

Really damn lame lor... I felt so played out by the both of them. I strongly suspect that they did it on purpose for whatever reason that only they know. The worse thing is, after I came back into office, X don't look like she's having a headache at all lor. I relate the whole incident to my other colleague and my colleague said that X don't look like she's having a headache as she's "jumping" around in the office. Damn crap lor...

I did not really talk much to C and X after that as I was quite upset. In the future if we are out for lunch together, if I have nothing to do already and have to wait for them, I will go back to the office on my own first. I will not waste anymore time waiting for them and risk getting played out by them like that day.

Lunch

I have been feeling quite uncomfortable lunching with my usual lunch kakis nowadays. Ever since my ex watch-the-clock direct boss left and my current don't-watch-the-clock direct boss takes over, they seem to be taking longer and longer time to have lunch. My office is not very strict about lunch hours. Often, we will go out for lunch at around 11.30 or 11.40am and comes back around 1pm.

Recently, lunch hours have been from 11.30/11.40am to 1.15/1.30pm. If it's occasionally then never mind lah... But it seems to be happening too often. I did not lunch with them the past few days as I was not very hungry and I was tied up with some work to do. In the end, they have been coming back from lunch at 2pm over the past few days. C will come back and tell me excuses like it took very long before the cab/bus comes or they went and buy stationary or they lost their way looking for my other colleague's car. I don't give a damn but I just feel that luckily I was not with them as it just doesn't look very good to be taking such a long lunch even though no one said a thing about it in front of us. You never know what people are saying behind our backs. Especially when I know how vicious the people on my office can be...

My bf told me to do what I think is right. However there is hardly a way that I can avoid lunching with them without being too obvious. See how lah... sigh...

Clock

The other day, I was "lucky" to be in the pantry alone when my MD came in and talked to me about the clock in the office which had slowed down by 20 mins. He asked me to get someone to adjust the time back. Instead, I asked him if we can get a new clock since this had happened quite a couple of times. He said ok but he wanted us to get a similar clock and told me some history about the importance of the clock to our BIG BIG boss.

When I told A, who is also the HR of the office that I had the approval of the MD to get a new clock. She told me that she had already planned to get it. So we went to Ikea to get the clock over lunch time. I told A to get a similar clock because of what the MD told me this morning but she insisted in giving the office a new look and getting a much nicer black face "New Arrival" clock. She said she will tell the MD this one is new arrival so will be good one. Since there's no way I can changed her mind in getting a similar clock to our existing one, I decided to shut my mouth.

Within minutes of A getting someone to put that clock up the wall, she was asked to remove it. One of my colleague who is also one of the pioneer in this office told her that we cannot use that clock as it was black face or something. A LL have to remove it from the wall.

I can't help but think that "I told you so" when I heard that she had to remove it. She is the one who refused to listen to me. 做人有时不可以太铁齿...

School starts again...

There goes my school holidays... School is starting this coming week. Another few months of suffering starts again all the way until October I think... I heard that this semester is pretty tough... Sigh... Let's hope it's not as bad as what I heard...

Turning back time...

A part of me wants to turn back time. So that I will not have so many regrets... Regrets such as not studying hard enough and end up going one BIG round just to get a degree. Regrets such as being so stubborn and refusing to study the course I had applied for a few years ago because RMIT insist on me studying 2 years instead of 1.5 years that I had wanted. Regrets that things I would probably be or have done if I had obtained my degree earlier.

However I do know that even if I can turn back time, I would probably have done all these things all over again. It's just me I guess... Even if I did not end up doing these things, I might end up doing other things and still regret doing them too.

I have to keep telling myself that whatever that had happened had happened... No point regretting them now. I can only live on with it and learn to deal with them. For better or worse.

At least the path that I am going through now allows me to know some dear friends whom I would otherwise probably never know. At least it gave me some dear memories that I know I will keep in my heart forever no matter what. Memories I will never want to forget...

Probably like what a good friend of mine said, "no need to wonder, bound to have a few regrets here and there. It's how u choose to deal with them that makes u a better person."