what r u guarding against me? 

Sigh...

I thought I had already make peace with it. But I guess I still do care. Otherwise I won't be feeling the way I am now... Sigh... 

Sleepless at night

This is actually quite terrible. I have been sleeplessmat night ever since I moved into Punggol? Is it the problem with the place? I definitely did not have any problem sleeping when I stayed over with dad in wdls just the other day. It is only when I a, staying in Punggol when I faced this problwm. Sigh...

I hope this phenomenon won't continue... I want my sleep! 

Axed

My company axed 2 person yesterday, after giving them their pay increment letter on Friday. wtf. It is good that the retrenchment package is based on the new pay. I just don't understand why they choose to give people hope on Friday that you are not going to be axed since they give you a pay increment and then axed them the following day? so kns one lor.

I am sad to see someone whom I had been working with for the last almost 9 years leave us because of this axing. I am even more upset with the company. Did they realised that these very people whom they had just axed, are the ones wh helped you grow your business to this size for the last few years?
Yes, you set up a China office, make it to be the hq and make it bigger than what we have in Sg. However, what they have in China may not be the best. I had heard comments from other people who said that they missed having us do the stuff for them. I have kept quiet because I know there is no way things can go back to how it was.

The company is no longer worth staying. It is no longer the company that it used to be. I guess that explains alot why there are so many pioneers quitting the last few years. It is time to get out.

Bothered

I'm actually quite bothered by how upset she was over my joke. As much as I really meant it as a joke, I didn't realise she will be so upset. So upset that I can actually feel the distance that she is putting between us now even though she told me she had got over it liao. Or am I just being too senstive liao?

Whatever it is, I realised that I do need to think twice about anything I tell her from now on. I guess I don't wish to see what happened today repeat itself again.

Death

A schoolmate of mine just passed away from cancer yesterday. He had been fighting cancer for the last 2 years. This had me thinking... what is the best way to leave this world? 

Is it better to know when your end is near so that you do what you have yet to accomplish and have the time to say goodbye? Or  is it better to just leave the world just with a wham-bang kind of way? 

I really have no idea which is the most ideal way. It is just sad to know that one day, we will all have to leave this world. I know there are some regrets that I am definitely going to leave this world with. I just hope I can minimise them. Sigh... 

Random

We are training up the people in other countries so that we can get replaced by them. It's ok though. They can learn whatever stuff we are doing but they will never be able to take away my experience. My 8 years of hard work is not something that is just for show. They will never be able to take away what I had learnt.