will I actually have the chance/courage to end it all? After all, it is really not going anywhere... I'm tired...

Keeping Diaries

Sometimes I wonder if it is really good to keep diaries or blog to make me remember what had happened in my life. While doing spring cleaning today, I saw a diary that I used to keep. I wrote about things that happened between my ex bf and me. It seemed so long ago and it is making me feel really old. It does however, make me remember my life then. About how it used to be... About life so long ago... That was a good relationship that I had so it sort of brings back good memories. What about the bad memories I had? Will it make me start thinking about how it should have been? About how things can be different if I had done some things differently?

366 Project: Pineapple tarts

This year's home made pineapple tarts. Taste quite nice. :D

Missing those days...

I missed those days in Uni when I had lots more fun than just studying. Those KTV days, drinking, birthday sabotages, trip to Sapa in the sleepover train...

I missed the gang too... what really happened to make us all drift so far apart? I had hoped that they are not just situational friends, hoped that they are really friends for life... Maybe the friendship is not strong enough in e first place... Sigh...

Crazy

for a moment I thought he was crazy. Then I realised I am the crazy one to think he will actually even consider that. :S

Happy 2013!

Weird dreams

I finally fallen asleep with an active mind at 6+ in the morning. I had a weird dream. Something totally unexpected. I don't remember much details about it anymore but I do remember about me visiting these people who are sort of critically ill and they passed on in the later part of the dream. All these just to make me realise that I was dead too. Weird right?

I don't know if there is any meaning to the dream at all. There could be but I will never know. It may be just me watching too much tv over the past few days and thus all these drama in my dreams. haha... I wonder what kind of weird dreams are waiting for me tonight...