Regrets

I always caution myself when I make any decisions, that I should not have regrets. Just like that time when I choose what school to go after my 'O' Levels, what was I going to do after I did badly for my 'A' Levels. I never really have any regrets since I know what is it that I want.

No matter how I caution myself, there are always bound to be somethings that I cannot control. Just like how badly I fare in 'A' Levels thus I ended up having to back track and go to poly. I regretted not studying harder then so that at least I may be able to get into University and don't have to backtrack. However, life will definitely be very different for me if I never been through that stage of life. I will not know all those good girlfriends in poly. I may not be as good friends with Fred as I am now. I may not know those people from SPUG. I guess that's why people say "Things happen for a Reason".

There are other things that I regret too. Things like not starting my degree course sooner because of the unfairness in the stupid decision made by the school that made me postpone my studies. If I carried on with the course, I will probably be graduating this June and not like 2 years later. So sian... Anyway, it's too late to do anything about it now. So I just have to live with it.

There was 1 particular decision that I made when I was much younger (Damn, I am making myself sound so old) like when I was 17 that till now, I have not regretted at all. I was and still is, very glad to stand by what I did then. It was something which I never told anyone about before and never will. Not even to Fred who probably knows every other secret that I have. :P

Maybe I am trying to compensate for the one of the regrets that I once had and thus I am lead to make a decision. A decision that I am now starting to wonder if I will live to regret. Maybe not now, but in the future? I just hate the look of how things are going right now. The way that shows that I will regret making this decision one day. The way it is going to kill me...

This thing call Love...

I forgot where did I read it before but for some reason, this phrase came into my mind tonight while I was walking home.

Some people always say that Love is Blind. But the truth is, Love is NOT blind. It is people using this saying Love is Blind as an excuse to justify their actions.

Sometimes I even wonder if a person had truely loved before if they had never done anything crazy for it. No matter how clever, sensible or practical the person is, there will be some point in time that they will end up doing some stupid thing that they never thought they will ever do because of this thing call Love.

Even though I have always think of myself as someone quite sensible, I did some stupid things before. Till now, occasionally I will start thinking about it and wonder if it is worth it or not. Maybe I have the answers a few years down the road... Maybe not... No matter what, there's still no regrets... At least I don't want it to become something that I will regret...

Tired...

3 days in school and I am totally tired! I am even beginning to wonder if going back to school is a wrong decision on my part.... Faintz... I will finish school at 10pm and will only reach home by 11 the earliest... By the time I do my stuff, it will be time to go to bed.

I am currently on course in Changi these 2 days. It's a horrible thought that I have to travel all the way from Changi to Clementi for school. Luckily today there was this kind lady in my class staying in Clementi who dropped me off to school. Tomorrow I will need to figure out how am I going to travel to Bukit Gombak to learn driving...

I am feeling so tired that I am thinking of canceling my plans to go shopping for my CNY clothes in Orchard on Friday. I feel like just going home and nua for a change... Let's see how it goes...

Books

I have the habit of reading since young. I don't stick to one particular genre of books. Most of the time I will just grab any book that catches my interest and read them. Of course I do have some authors whose books that I will try to read whenever possible.

Most of the time I prefer to borrow books from the library as I don't have space to store them at home. Another reason is because I will mostly read the book once and leave it there for many many years until I remember it again. However, over the recent years, I do buy a book occasionally whenever I see a good buy.

I have been reading Jeffrey Archer's books since secondary school days I think. I bought a book "A Prisoner by Birth" written by Jeffrey Archer one or two months ago and only got to reading it only a few days ago. :P I am still halfway into reading it but still, I bought another book "False Impression" that was written by him too at Popular today. At $5+, the book is too cheap for me to think before buying. I think this is a very good buy. :D I do hope his new books are still as good as his old ones. Looking forward to finishing the stories...

Recapping 2008

The year 2008 can probably be what I will describe as good I guess especially work-wise. I got promoted and was sent to Shanghai for an overseas trip to help out in a tradeshow.

In other aspects, it was quite ok too. I got back in touch with some friends whom I have slowly losing touch with as the years goes by. I now realised that somethings works both ways. It is very hard for one person to always be the one putting in the effort to make sure you keep in contact. Sometimes, you will have to take the initiative and the other person will have to make that similar effort to.

Some events that happened in 2008 made me realised that Dreams do come true. At least for me, the dream that came true was something that I had never expected. It also in turn made me change my point of view about somethings. At least now, I know that there are somethings that I have to do if not I may have more regrets in my life.

Whatever it is, I hope 2009 will be a good year. :)

Resolutions for 2009?

I was browsing through my old entries in 2007 and 2008 and realised that every year I will make resolutions and HOPE I can fulfil them in the coming new year. It seems to me that I am not succeeding...

Then again... There are still some resolutions that I really want to fulfil... Losing weight... For some reason, maybe because of the medications that I took earlier on or something, my weight only keeps on rising... It's really time for it to drop lah... I am getting too fat for my own good... :(

I am planning to keep all my credit cards at home too in order to prevent myself from spending any money. After all, after some calculation and all, I realised that I just have enough to get by every month after paying my school fees provided I don't go shopping. No choice lah... I just have to make do with what I have... :S

Happy 2009!

Happy New Year! May 2009 be a better year for everyone! :)