Sleepless in CNY...

I can't believe this... I am up at 7+ again this morning... Up so early when I can choose to be still sleeping at this time. What happen??? I thot I am a pig who can sleep at practically anywhere anytime?

When I say I can sleep practically anywhere, it's really no joke leh... I will meet up with my sec school friends in AMK once in a while. We like to hang out in the one of the multi-storey carpark in AMK central. There's actually quite many people doing the same thing as us. My friends will like to bring along their guitar or laptops along with them and just play guitar, sing and chit chat. We celebrated a few birthdays up there too. Why bring laptops??? Cos you can actually get network there! Weird place to find network rite? ok back to how pig I can be... I remember there was once I was feeling quite tired (when am I not feeling tired?). Ford they all were playing guitar and singing at the carpark and I being the one who super 没有音乐细胞 (can't play guitar and can't sing), got a bit bored after a while and start to feel sleepy liao. Then I kahpok Ford's guitar bag, lie on top of it and just sleep in the multi storey carpark itself... ya i know I am a pig... Dun need to tell me that... yawn...

okok... I think I shld try and get back to sleep again... Need to try and get rid of my dark eye circles. I think they really look horrible. No amount of concealer seems to be able to cover them. Anyone who knows how to get rid of them are welcome to let me know the solution... Thanks... ;)

Happy Chinese New Year

Happy Chinese New Year to all~! This is the Doggy Year... I am unfortunately 24 this year cos I am born in a Doggy Year too... Sad sad... How I wish I can stay 21 every year... :'(

Anyway I am very bo liao today so went and search the Chinese horoscope to see how the Doggy year will be for everyone...

Hope everyone has a good year ahead. Ang bao get many many~! Dun eat too much heaty stuff but if you do, remember to drink lots of water... and most importantly, strike the 10 million ToTo~! ;)

Some updates in my life...

I think there is something seriously wrong with me... I can't believe that I am actually up at 7 this morning... Normally I will still be sleeping at this time of the day (unless I have to work) as long as I don't have anything on. I tried to go back to bed but for some reason I just cant get back to sleep. Why why why??? Maybe I am losing sleep cos of that pair of shoes that I wanted to get but cant get my size??? :P

I seriously think that I need to cut down on my shopping liao... Been spending too much on clothes and stuff. Think I spent like around $400 on my shopping this month... Must cut down must cut down... Especially when I am finally getting my own laptop... I cant wait for the day to come when my laptop finally arrives... :D

I made an oreo cheesecake just the other day. Quite nice but super fattening... Imagine all the cream cheese, whipping cream, white chocolate and oreo inside it... Nan de I got time and xin qing to make it. The receipe was stuck on my fridge door since the day I got it (which was sometime last sept or oct I think). I purposely took a picture of it while I was eating it and sent it to Fred and dk. Hee... Both of them started cursing me cos they dun get a share... :P

The Oreo Cheesecake that I made... Yummy... :P

I just discovered that I actually have a two week break after my next vacation module~! That means I'll be free for two weeks from 3rd April to 16 April with no lessons at all~! I missed those days... No need to rush for school after work. No need to rush to do projects... I am definitely looking forward to complete my advance diploma. But no, I am not looking forward to my exams... Dun understand why they need to kill my brain cells with exams... Already dun have much brain cells liao they still want to do that to me... :'(

I went for prata at Casuarina Road with the JR gang on Friday... Very expensive prata for me cos I took a cab down from SP to meet them. Actually dk wanted to pick me up in SP at ard 10pm since he went and picked Iris fr Bt Batok n HJ from NUS but I couldn't finished my project in time. So I told them to go ahead with the "dinner" without me. I gave dk a call after I finished my project at ard 10.30. He told me to come down join them since they just reached there also... So I took cab down lor... Bo bian... promised to join them the day before liao. Especially when I haben seen them all together for quite some time liao. The prata there is still as good as ever. The curry actually tastes better now. They have move a few shops down the row and is nearer to the carpark now. The best thing is there's actually air-con there now~! As usual, I had lots of fun with them. We were all teasing Giz abt the new love in his life and HJ abt how rich is he. :P HJ said that I put on weight again since he last saw me but dk said that I slimmed down liao. Their conclusion to that is that HJ did not see me when I was at my fattest so it looks to him like I put on weight but to dk I look like I have slimmed down. Think I really need to jian fei liao~! okok... Think I really need to work on my new year resolution liao... But how to with all the bak kwa and new year goodies in my hse????

Funeral

We held a 7 day funeral for grandma. This is perhaps the first and only time I see so many of my relatives together. I see all my cousins and aunties at the funeral and lots of distant relatives. Even those whom I never see for a long long time.

I was at the funeral most of the time unless I went home to bath, catch a quick nap and have a change of clothes. I stayed over most of the nights too other than on Thursday as I had to work on Fri. It was very tiring for all of us and very emotionally draining for all the aunties and my mum.

I bet I never see my mum cry so much before. In fact, I dun remember ever seeing her cry at all. She was so sad to about the death of grandma. So is everyone else. Sometimes I will think if it is better for her to go. At least she will no longer suffer from the pain that is constantly torturing her. She can finally rest in peace.

Things will definitely be very different in my maternal side with my grandma gone. The "pillar" of the family is no longer around. I dread to think what will happen to this family. Hope this family will not change...

Grandma

I was never very close to her possibly due to the language barrier. I can understand what she is telling me but as I am not very proficient in my Hokkien, sometimes it is really hard for me to express myself to answer her. It will often end up like one duck and one chicken trying to talk to each other. Most of the time I will end up looking at my aunts or uncles for help.

As I grow older, I seldom visit my grandma's house as often as I have other commitments. Most of the time, I will only visit my grandma house a few times a year. However, my mum and my aunties will gather at my grandma's house almost every forthnight. They like to gather there, gossip and cook dinner together for everyone. They are very closely knit.

My grandma passed away yesterday at the age of 79. Everyone is very sad to see her go even though we know the time will come sooner or later.

I still can remember the visits to her house when I was young. My cousins and I would play hide and seek in her house and hid ourselves in her cupboard, behind her curtains, under her bed, practically any place where we could hide or squeeze into as long as we would not get caught. It was so fun then...

*The cupboards I used to hide in while playing hide and seek with my cousins...

I wonder how things will change now that she is gone. I wonder...

Death of a loved one

This is perhaps the second time in my whole lifetime that I experienced a death in my family. The first time was when I was in Sec 2 when my paternal grandfather passed away. Today, my maternal grandma left us at 8pm.

I cried when I saw the sms from my cousin informing me about her death. I was having my lessons then and the lecturer happened to give us a break when her sms came. I went out of the classroom and called her immediately after that. She told me that grandma just passed away not long ago. I called my dad after that and he instructed me not to let my brother know the news as he is currently in Philippines due to work reasons.

She passed away due to cancer. She was already in the terminal stage when the doctors discovered it. There was nothing much they can do for her since she was too weak to go for an operation to remove the tumor in her bile duct. After staying in SGH for nearly a month, my family transferred her to Dover Park Hospice. She is more or less waiting for her time to come ever since she was admitted there. Each time I went and visit her, the only noticable difference I could see is her growing thinner and thinner. It is really heart wrenching to see her become like that.

I am just so glad that I went down to visit her yesterday as I actually din want to go as I was kinda lazy and was thinking of pushing the visit all the way to tues. How glad I am now. At least I still get to see her before she left us today.

New Year Resolution...

I never make any new year resolution before... SO I decided to do it this year... this will be my one and only new year resolution of 2006... to lose weight~! Hope I can achieve this... Think I must cut dw on eating supper liao... :P